It's been quite a while, and although I've thought about writing it hasn't really been a priority. But the last few weeks I've been thinking more and more and I reckon it's time to have another brain dump.
Things seem different now, there are thoughts and feelings that I would definitely have written about back in the day had they occurred to me, but it doesn't quite seem right now. I have rejoined society and am back at work. In some ways it would make me more comfortable if I could keep everything separate, in neat little silos. I guess that was the whole point though in the first place - to just be open about everything. Old habits die hard.
Anyway, here we are. It has been over five months now since my operation and I am coming up to the next set of scans and consultations. I should really have had them in February but they got pushed back. I think the speed at which I am approaching the MRI appointment has brought on this need to write again, it's always at the back of my mind and there's an uneasy feeling of unfinished business in the air.
Realistically the chances of the scan showing any regrowth is really, very small. It doesn't quite work telling myself that though, and I'm still feeling a bit apprehensive.
Besides this, I'm generally feeling ok. It's hard to believe that everything written here actually happened now. Equally it's hard to believe that I'm alright. I'm more than alright, things are great. Besides the constant tiredness and the short hair, I am pretty much back to how I was.
This is just a little reintroduction to writing again, and I hope to detangle my thoughts over the next few weeks with a few more posts about actual things. It definitely helped writing stuff down last time so I'm going to try that again. Oh - and my super talented uncle sent me some brilliant photos he'd managed to get from my MRI scan and I've put them on the photos page. Check out my eyeballs - I always said they were my best feature.